an awkward compulsion

I’ve been struggling with an impulse lately - one of those compulsions that an experienced sub would know how to handle but leaves me feeling a little confused and vulnerable. The experience I’ve had so far hasn’t prepared me for what I’m feeling…and the person I’d most like to discuss it with is not an option.

He’s rather the source of my discomfort at the moment.

Here’s the problem: I have this friend that I recently feel compelled to call Sir. I’ve come to have a great respect for him and it seems natural and right to address him with the honorific as opposed to his name. The more my respect grows for him, the more my compulsion grows. And yet this is my friend and I wouldn’t want him to think that I have some alternative expectation of our friendship.

I’ve stopped myself from letting it slip out in our communications more than once and have spent way too much time wondering what he might think if I were to ask him if I may address him as such. I would be honored if he were to allow me this. But I can’t bring myself to ask. I’m afraid that the asking would change something, or that he might think less of me.

Do friends call friends Sir? Wouldn’t it be strange for me to call this man Sir when I address no others as such?