finding absolution

Sometimes I surprise myself. Until Friday evening's punishment, I have never attained such grace in facing a punishment, never been so focused or in tune to how my dominant was feeling/experiencing things and never known the rewards that are unique to each of these qualities. It sounds strange to say but my punishment was both an enlightening and positive experience. I feel as if I am already a better submissive for having gone through it.

My path toward absolution included much more than penance. It was filled with reflection, surprise, and lessons of a different nature than those I was being disciplined for. I discovered a certain strength and courage I didn't know I had. I was surprised by some aspects I found difficult and others that were easy and natural. I have never experienced a punishment quite like it nor from the mental perspective I found on Friday.

Of course, it was not without it's uncomfortable moments and certainly not without pain. It was punishment. I was being held accountable for my failures and that is never an easy thing. But I came through. I did my penance and found absolution.

Ma'am and Sir were both extremely pleased and proud of their girl...but I have to admit – I was too.