the drawback of being good

I've been a very good girl lately....it's been more than 3 weeks since I've earned a punishment. And yet...I find that I miss some aspects of those times when I more frequently required my Doms' discipline. It's not the punishment itself that I miss and it certainly isn't that terrible feeling of having disappointed. What I miss is the opportunity for learning and growth it provided me. I learned a lot in my earlier days of service and as my punishments have become less so have my training sessions and reflective assignments. I'm craving the tighter control that I felt in those days as well.

Some days it seems as if being a good girl is not all it's cracked up to be...but I can't imagine trying to be anything else.