on the mend

For the past several weeks, my body and mind have been woefully out of sync. For the most part, I've been physically unable to be of much service to my Ma'am - plagued by knee and back issues that once again leave me consigned to flats and physical therapy. It has been frustrating (to say the least!) to be sidelined.

Ma'am and I both have tried very hard to be patient while I work toward healing my body but I feel terrible every time I see the disappointment in her eyes as she realizes that yet again I am unable to serve...she has been wonderful and very understanding of my limited capacity but I know she misses the use of her girl. Right now I want nothing more than to feel Ma'am's collar around my neck and to be capable of living up to the expectations of that collar. I want to be useful. I want to serve.

Today, a little ray of hope... it has been a couple of days since my spine has been straightened and the pain in my back has gotten significantly better. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that tomorrow will be even better and I will soon be able to spend some much needed time with my Ma'am.