how could I forget?

Last night I had my second training session of the week with Ma'am. I've been doing well lately and it was almost a perfect evening. Almost. Until I managed to screw it up.

Ma'am was feeling very generous and had decided I'd earned a reward. My reward was lovely and the pleasure she allowed me was one of my favorite things. This is apparently when my mind decided to go on vacation. Ma'am gave me four wonderful orgasms...and I forgot to ask permission all four times.

Forgot.

Four times.

Not even a thought in my head.

How can that be?

I have NEVER forgotten before. Which is not to say that I've never cum without asking permission - there have been moments were my orgasm came on so quickly that I didn't have time to ask. But always – ALWAYS – I was aware of the words I didn't say and have apologized immediately. And while I did apologize last night...the fact remains that the thought never entered my mind and I didn't realize the omission until Ma'am pointed it out.

I'm beginning to suspect that I'm sabotaging myself...lately it seems that it's all one step forward and two steps back with me...